Hi I’m new

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I’ve recently been checking out sites for people with Asperger’s, ASD, depression, etc.
I believe I may have slight Asperger’s, but the reason I’m doing this is because I’m searching for people with these qualities.

I happen to be an introvert with anxiety and neurotic thinking caused from a (to put it lightly) troubled past. It’s nerve-wracking for me to interact with people (small talk, and the likes) due to a chronic psychological complexes I work with myself every day to resolve, erode, and attempt to replace with positivity, inspiration, encouragement, and acceptance.

I’m told I’m incredibly insightful and carry this vibe of ‘knowingness’, understanding, wisdom, and foreshadowing. I would have to say I’m primarily a spiritual person who enjoys seeing everything there is to see in myriad different ways. This transposes to ‘mystical’ contextualization of

An unusual quality (according to my current understandings of Asperger’s/ASD) I posses is the ability to thoroughly read people and situations on-the-spot. This also applies especially to emotions. I feel most people happen to be emotionally and cognitively blind towards one-another when it comes to interacting. Emphasis on this when it comes to animals/insects/plants (generally put: beings.) and people failing to respect themselves.

People have described me as everything between being sage-like, or the personified embodiment of an acid trip lol. Crazy but not crazy.
People tell me I never fail to understand, and can often unsettle what others understand and open their minds to possibilities that don’t seem to ever occur to them.

What I’ve explained here sounds wonderful to have and be when put into text, but it’s actually far from it. I feel like one of the most unusual people to ever live, and an anomaly that cannot coincide serenely anywhere.

I want to be here as a positive being in this reality. I like to reinterpret my flaws as superpowers that develop upon and evolve each other. Superpowers to do what most deem the impossible, if not downright unimaginable. My overarching goal in life, in all that I strive to do, is to help everyone I can, and hopefully eventually on a worldly and even cosmic scale.

If you are reading this, I would like for you to not scoff and ridicule me for what appears to be me stroking my ego, but instead learn from this kind of mentality so that you may further help yourself and others. You have special powers. You are magical. You naturally defy the order that pins everyone else down, lost and stuck in the matrices of corrupted life in this existence.

I don’t really know what I was intending to convey here but I thought I’d say hi and let everyone have a taste of my crazy to go with it.

I want to give my heart to someone who this world owe’s all the love that it could ever give. I want to love someone long been hurt, tortured, broken, neglected, traumatized, disabled, etc and love them as if I were their angel that came here to guide them in this world.

This is what I secretly ever truly wanted for myself for as long as I can remember. I’ve realized I’m becoming the being I always hoped to have beside me here. And I will be there for them who, like I was, hoping for someone to always be there. I’m a mad lad and I learned to rightfully be proud of it.

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I would love to be with someone with Asperger’s/ASD. I want to comfort them whenever they need something to. Engage with them and stimulate and challenge them through their interests. Be their best friend and guide in life. Be something they always look forward to and be able to sleep peacefully at night knowing I’m there and that everything in the world feels alright to them because they have that special someone.

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