Finally I am taking a ASD assessment

[Wendin]

I am half way through my ASD assessment with a psychologist. Yesterday we spent almost 5 hours working on the test. When I was at school (even till grad school), I dreaded any kind of examination. However, even though I felt so burnt out at the end of the day, I am glad that I didn’t get into a panic fit (esp. when going through some tough segments of the test). Regarding of the results, I am so proud of myself. Hold on, ha, I have to be done with the second half (an ASD questionnaire for homework) before I can make any conclusion. So…to be continued.

• This topic was modified 2 years, 8 months ago by Wendin.
• This topic was modified 2 years, 8 months ago by Wendin.
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[Ewoud]

Hi Wendin! How exciting. It seems to be quite an exhausting exam indeed. Just let us know how it all went. 🙂 I am very curious!

[Wendin]

Hi, Big Bro. For sure. I will keep you posted.

[Ewoud]

Appreciated lill sis!

[Wendin]

There were take-home assessments after the appointment. In the period of two weeks I have finished almost 2 dozens tests (including 3 tests that needed an observer’s inputs). I feel lucky that one of my friends from work was willing to put in the time and effort to help me finish the task. Now I just wait. No hurry.

[Wendin]

I have had a feedback session with the psychologist on a Zoom call. I have ASD. That’s the official diagnosis. Life goes on. Now I am going to order some autism awareness T-shirts to wear for the summer and tell Karen from work to go to hell with her emotions. I don’t have time for her. I need to spend more time figuring out my own emotions. It seems life does feel easier after getting my closure. I have never been this proud of myself.

A – Always
U – Unique
T – Totally
I – Intelligent
S – Sometimes
M – Mysterious

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[Wendin]

Time flies. It has been over a year since I received my ASD diagnosis. A while ago on a Discord server someone who got a late ASD diagnosis told me it took him more or less a decade to fully accept his Autism. I chuckled. Now I am afraid that it may take me longer to accept my condition. It’s ironic. Recently I have come to terms with the possibility that I may not end up being with a human companion…hopefully, with a few cute animal companions. It’s not a joke but I can’t help smiling. It is true that all my life I have tried way too hard to be liked and attempted to blend in the NTs’ world. I am so tried of pretending to be “normal” and wearing a NT mask that never fits me well. To be honest, I think I have maxed out my human relationship potentials. As I get older, it also appears to be harder for me to go out of my way to make more-than-friends (don’t get me start to talk about the time that I tried using dating apps…so energy consuming and meaningless). Then career-wise, I guess, that’s where I need to look into my potentials. I am scared of maths and logical thinking. Now I am learning computer programming. My skills are not solid yet. God knows how long it will take me to finish creating a portfolio to get a tech job. However, I am proud of myself just for daring to try something different: I quit a customer service job at a non-profit and got another customer service job in the corporate world. Then I started learning more about accessibility in web design…and I joined a volunteer group to advocate for immigrants with disability. So, me, on a new phase: accepting more challenges and getting ready to do more self care and self growth.

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